It was until Tom and I began dating and got married that I really had a desire to have a child. I knew I was with the person that I wanted to spend my life with and share the responsibility and joy of raising a child. I had previous boyfriends that, in my own immaturity, I thought were "the ones" that I wanted to marry and have kids with but let me just say "thank God for divine intervention." Raising kids is probably "the" most important job there is and it's not one to take lightly. I would never recommend it to someone who was not strong of heart because it can be a thankless job and you have to really want it.
Sophia was dearly wanted yet unexpected. She came during a very tumultuous time in my life, but again, divine intervention was definitely at play. I have grown in so many ways since this little being has blessed my life. I can sincerely say that I didn't truly know love until I knew Sophia...she is my day and night and all in between. I love her as I could love nothing else. Of course, I love my husband and my family and friends, but a mothers love for a child is altogether different. I could never understand my parents and why they put up with so much crap from me and my siblings...well now I know.
I don't want to belittle what great things and great human beings fathers are, but mothers have a special gift...they have the gift of opening their souls and releasing life into the world. The bonds between mothers and their children are different for just that reason because the mother is the bearer of life. Now, we know that that life could not be without the father but the mother has to nurture that life from its conception and she is the one that feels and experiences every initial movement of growth. How lucky are we?!?! Also, I want to emphasize that when I say "mother" or "father" I am referring to those individuals who not only create the life but who are a strong and positive presence in those lives throughout. Anyone can create life...what you do next matters just as much. Oh, and don't let me forget kudos to those mom and dads out there who didn't create the life, for whatever unfortunate reason, but who choose to adopt and raise that life as if it were truly their own.
Anyway, since I have become a mom, my life has completely changed, for the better. It has not always been easy and there have been many a night that I've cried myself to sleep wondering if I'm doing right by my little one, but when I wake up in the morning and see her smiling at me, I know it's all worth it.
Happy Mother's Day to all the moms in my life and to all mothers everywhere.
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